The Last Ride

Saturday, February 28, 2009

So I just noticed that Shinya is kinda...OHSOINCREDIBLYHOTANDSMEXY. :O Harhar...

I'm bored and this interested me...it's slightly late so I'm sorry if you've already heard about it...if you're immature then I don't suggest you read it...

I'm sorry... after awhile, let me sleep by your name

I want to be yours and I want you to be mine.

The passing days drew us closer
The pain is matched with joy
Both hands reflect that
I cry when I think of you

A mom cries over her baby, who died from miscarriage.

I dont want you to fade
Let me hear, even a sigh
A small heartbeat, that isn't there
I want you come here

The mom is asking her baby to come back, even if it's the slightest sound of a heartbeat or a sigh.

The name which I cannot call out I held closely
Counting with my fingers, I don't want tomorrow to dissapear
Hearing with blocked ears
The sound of a broken cradle

The spring time will never come again
The crimson lotus is in bloom

[This is where the maturity part comes in. =/]

1. the tap = penis
2. red room = mother's uterus
3. white paint = sperm
4. the girl = embryo
5. colour red = life
6. colour white = death

There is the sound of a child's laughter, representing life, happiness, and innocence. The child, a little girl wearing a red dress which represents life, takes white paint overflowing from a tap and smears it over the walls of a room, which are also red.

When the walls have been covered in the paint, the girl's dress also turns white and she is no longer moving.

Story: Her mom had a miscarriage and she died inside her mother's uterus. The colour white represents death, which explains why she was no longer moving when her dress turned white.

PV: Guren - the GazettE

Get it??

So that made me think for a while...a long while...watching the PV, I never would've expected it to be about a miscarriage. I know this sounds slightly cheesy and whatnot, but it never ceases to amaze me how much thought the GazettE put into their songs...not the lyrics and music, but the meaning behind all that and how they look at life though someone else's perspective to try and reach out to other people...*RESPECT*

Disagree with me all you want, but you won't change my mind...

Get it?? XD

Official Countdown: 25

<3 Lang

Listening To: Goodbye Baby - Big Bang [Thanks Nao XD]

Last ride on; 10:38 AM

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Hiroto~ I still love you <33333

On the subway this morning, I saw a bishie that looked exactly like Hiroto...only he had darker skin and longer hair...caught me staring at him and smiled...really too cute. ^^ I think he was of Southeast Asian decent...

Failed my math test...or nearly failed...at least I can do a retest...

Anyways, I finally downloaded guitar pro!! Now I can attempt to play some of Gaze's songs...badly...wish me luck...T___T|||

Happy birthday Keiyuu!! We can be short together!! 8D Keke <3

Official countdown: 27

<3 Lang

Listening To: Volcano - Girugamesh <33

Last ride on; 1:58 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Another picture of Kenn <333

Hm today was an okay day...before Spanish, some grade 8 kid came and yelled in my ear while I was listening to my Ipod...I told him to STFU in front of all his friends and they started laughing...then Sra told me to stop listening to my Ipod cause it would distract me from my "learning"...Pfffttt bad karma much?? =___= Then Emily was trying to steal my food...when I refused to give her any, she kept saying "Please" in a really whiny voice and reaching over to try and take some...Then when a crumb of my cookie fell on the table, she grabbed it...I was like "Okay, do your parents feed you??" *rolls eyes*

Alyssa and I went to Multicultural lunch...the girl gave Alyssa double the amount of tickets she paid for...so Alyssa gave some of the extra to me. ^o^ Yays <3

Went to the ROM after school with Alyssa to hand in my volunteer application form...so many people are applying. T___T||| I'm already done my community service hours so I have no idea why I applied...*headdesk* I guess it's a good excuse to stay at home for the second week of March Break...and avoid going to Cuba. 8DDD

Took a picture of an ice sculpture outside the ROM cause I thought it looked kinda cool. Har har, this is proof of how cold it is here...though it's starting to melt. I want spring~ *whines*

Raaawwwrrr I'm stressing over science...need to go mug now...

Official countdown: 28

<3 Lang

Listening To: Ishoku Othello - Lolita23q

Last ride on; 11:07 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Kenn of ethe'Real <333 Singaporean VK band!! ^o^ He looks way too cute.

I passed my Spanish test!!~ My mark was considerably high actually, considering that half the class failed...though it was lower than my average...crap. Even after I studied all last night too...I guess I couldn't cram all that vocabulary into my head and actually expect myself to remember it the next day...*shrugs*

I nearly lost my ipod today...checked the third floor and the French room to see if I left it somewhere...found it in my bag. =___=||| Geez...nearly caused me a heart attack.

My parents want to take me to Cuba for March Break!! Effing Cuba!! DDD; Not that I have anything against Cubans...but I wouldn't particularly enjoy spending seven days sitting on a beach and drinking iced tea ~~and possibly looking horrible in a swimsuit if I'm ever forced to go swimming~~...or at least that's how I'd imagine it to be. I'm more of a..."sightseeing" type of person...I'd love to go to Europe and sightsee all the architectural buildings...call me crazy but I'd rather do that than go to Cuba. XDDD And take pictures...millions and millions of pictures. XD And possibly improve my French/Spanish/ German...though my parents keep telling me that Europe is too cold this time of year...

Whoo~ There's a store online that sells Aoi/Uruha's guitar...$6000 CAD though...@___@ Ha I want to buy an instrument I can't even play...all because of a J-Rocker. *headdesk* Aoi's guitar is the smex...

OMFG Ruki used to be a guitarist?? WHEN THE FUCK...*dies* Haha <33333 I seriously need to find motivation to learn how to play my guitar...it's collecting dust in my closet for goodness sakes. T___T My parents said I'll have to learn the guitar before I can get a bass...I guess that's only fair...even though I really regret buying a guitar now...*kicks guitar* Why are your strings so far apart that my tiny fingers cannot reach them?? Rawr~

My science binder has been sitting beside me for the past two and a half hours and I haven't even bothered opening it yet...looks like I'll be procrastinating 'til the last minute...

<3 Lang

Listening To: Aristocrat's Symphony - Versailles <3

Last ride on; 5:16 PM

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Reita of the GazettE...Smexy...

I bought four Taiwanese dramas from PMall...Brown Sugar Macchiato, I Want to Become a Hard Persimmon [Strange title...], The Frog Prince, and Romantic Princess, all of which I've heard are really interesting. Watching Brown Sugar Macchiato now...it's hilarious. XD Though the voice of that maid girl is rather annoying/hard to understand cause she slurs nearly every word...I hope for good cookie's sake it doesn't sound like that in reality. >___< My parents were saying how the actors can't really act and that they were only chosen for their good looks...meef whatever, it's entertainment...

There's a store at PMall that sells J-Rock stuff!! Saw some Gackt/Glay CDs...didn't buy them cause my parents were there...I really need to go shopping alone sometime...that is, when I actually have money to spend. T___T

I'm actually starting to like my blogskin...you can't not like a smiling Kai. XDDD So yeah...maybe I'm not so tempted to change it after all...

<3 Lang

Listening To: Break Down - Girugamesh

Last ride on; 6:54 PM

Altered the layout slightly...too much Kainess if you ask me, but I'm too lazy to change it...

I'm excited...my parents are taking me to PMall later today so I can look for DVDs and whatnot...

LALALATER LOSERZZZ haha. X3

<3 Lang [And feeling slightly weird]

Listening To: Sadie - Ice Romancer

Last ride on; 9:20 AM

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Bwahahahahahahaha LMFAO LMFAO LMFAO LMFAO *gigglesnort*

THIS IS MY BABY YO!! <3333333333

I have no idea why I switched layouts. =/ I'm strangely addicted to this one...~~it's not even that pretty~~...a different banner would be nice...Takuya's cute and all, but the blue is starting to bother my eyes. Blog title features lyrics from the song "Living Dolls" by ONE OK ROCK...do give it a listen, it's a lovely song.

I'm so bored...I've lost the mood to blog...Rawr~

<3 Lang

Listening To: Puzzle Ring

Last ride on; 4:55 PM

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Un deuxieme "post" parce que Alyssa et moi veulent "blog" en francais. 8D J'ai oublie...desole. Je ne peux pas utiliser les accents dans mon "post" parce que je suis paresseux...desole un autre fois. Je ne sais pas qu'est-ce que je veux dire...desole un troisieme fois. Notre francais n'est pas bien...desole un quatrieme fois.

Au revoir, mes amis. Je dois etudier plus francais avant je "post" encore.

<3 Lang

Listening To: Ai no Uta - Fukui Mai

Afterthought: [To Alyssa] LOL we fail. XDDD

Last ride on; 7:00 PM

Happy birthday Hizaki!!!! I am in awe of his beauty. <3

I need to rant...since most of you won't want to read this, you can just skip down to the next paragraph...

Goodness Christ, I cried and screamed so much yesterday. My eyes were red and inflamed...now I have a bloody fever, my hands are freezing, my throat is sore from so much screaming, I can't breathe through my nose, I have an effing migrane...and yet when I went to school today, I pretended to be fine...I'm so goddamn tired of pretending to be fine when I'm not...if my bad mood pisses you off, then be pissed off...as if I would give a damn. I'm tired of trying to make everyone like me, I'm tired of doing things for the sake of other people's happiness, I'm tired of trying to meet other people's expectations when I can barely meet my own...I'm tired of lying, I'm tired of keeping all my God damn thoughts to myself, I'm tired of doing things I don't want to do, I'm tired of caring so much, I'm tired of putting up with crap, I'm tired of crying and screaming, I'm tired of my emotions...

-End rant-

Anyways, Miyavi is leaving PSC. Yeah, another blow to my day...his decision was so sudden that I think everyone was shocked, including the other PSC members [Poor Kai!! D; ~~LOL~~]. I have a bad feeling some of the other bands will follow in his footsteps...not GazettE or I will effing die. I swear, Miyavi is the reason why PSC still exists...without him, PSC is like a band without a vocalist. >___< And he leaves right after their 10th anniversary live too...Rawr...I used to hate Miyavi, and now when I'm just starting to like his music he does this...

An excerpt from his post:

I thought about myself as an artist,
how to face the fans and people who support me,
thought and thought and got tired,
took nap and woke up and thought and thought,
took a shower and thought and thought,
got hungry and had a light meal, and thought and thought,
walked along the sea and thought and thought.
Then, before I realized, it was morning.
And I watched the sun rising from the sea.
Without thinking, I spontaneously started to cry.
Neither sad nor happy tears.
I just cried and decided.
It's neither a sad thing nor a happy thing.
I made a decision for my own bright feature.

Though I know Miyavi will find a more successful music career somewhere else and he'll still have the support of his fans, it's still bothering me like hell why he decided to leave PSC...Somone please enlighten me before I go insane. DX

Thank you MissDemon for all those D=OUT blog photos and Rxchaxl for the Puzzle Ring MP3. <33333 Yeah, it's a ripped version...I really couldn't wait 'til tomorrow for the real one. X3

Fuck math, I'll just fail and the world will be happy alright?? *hangs self*

<3 Lang

Listening To: Monchrome no Kiss - SID

Last ride on; 3:52 PM

Monday, February 16, 2009

Awwwww Uruha without makeup *squeals* Did you know his name means "lovely beauty"?? ^^

My parents confiscated my computer for most of yesterday so I wasn't online much...

I was so bored, I watched the movie "Secret" twice...just because I loved the music so much. I'm hooked onto the OST...it really is lovely, especially the song "Lu Xiao Yu". <333

Heh boredom~ Why am I suddenly so addicted to camwhoring?? Yeah it's fun but you are rotting the eyes of other people, Lang. *slaps self*

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

<3 Lang

Listening To: Lu Xiao Yu - Secret OST <3333333333

Last ride on; 7:30 AM

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day gift from bb <333 Even though I don't celebrate this day...~~guess bb doesn't know me as well as she thinks she does~~ XDDD...but a gift is always nice, especially if it's from such a sweet person. Thank you...I rabu it a ton. *huggles*

I finally found my glasses today after a week of walking into walls and copying notes from other people cause I couldn't see the blackboard...@___@ Yeah, super lameness...

<3 Lang

Listening To: Make Believe - Thornley

Last ride on; 7:39 PM

Friday, February 13, 2009

Kai still looks uberly smexy without makeup...beat that. No one can look this good without makeup...no one ~~except maybe a god~~...*goes insane*

I woke up at 6 AM cause my Ipod fell on my head. >___< Talk about unlucky...today is Friday the 13th after all...rawr...

At least it's a long weekend...no school today or Monday. <3

Camwhore pic~

Hearts <3

Don't ask my why I did this...I don't even like Valentine's Day...the idea of it is really dumb if you ask me...it's not as if you'd express your love for someone on this day only. And it's too emotional and whiny and pink for me. I just like getting chocolate. X3 And eating it...alone.

At least Valentine's Day is on the weekend this year...when I can stay at home and as far away as possible from couples who are slobbering each other with their saliva and dying from lack of oxygen...it's sick, really...

Ughhh stupid chest pains...I can't breathe properly...*wheezes*

<3 Lang

Listening To: Flower - 12012

Last ride on; 10:14 AM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Conversation between me and Wilson:

Wilson: Let me see your pictures~
Me: Alright...=___= Wait one sec...[shows him the picture above] this is Kai...he is my future laogong. 8D
Wilson: He looks like my cousin...
Me: OMFG can I meet your cousin??
Wilson: She's a girl...

And later...

Wilson: If a J-Rocker were to walk into our English class right now, everyone would ask "How are you, miss??" but you would be like "OMG!!!! *squeals*"

XDDDDD That made the both of us LOL really loudly and receive death glares from Mr. Cope...I've gotten over the fact that most people mistake J-Rockers for girls, but to clarify for the millionth time, they are 100% male with the exception of certain girl bands...and Kai doesn't even look close to a girl in that picture...*kicks Wilson*

Kai's smile is uber cuteness. <333

Stupid history textbook...I hate you right now...I'll fucking burn you at the end of the year...*throws textbook into the fireplace*

<3 Lang

Listening To: Unknown - Asagi [This song is so addictive...I effing love his voice. <33333]

Last ride on; 6:12 PM

Monday, February 9, 2009

Happy birthday Takuya!!!! <33333 *huggles* Can you believe he's 21?? It's already been 2 years since he joined An Cafe. @___@

Also, happy birthday Byou!! <3

I've gotten addicted to downloading from a bunch of random MP3 rotations...it's sorta fun actually...^^

I'm not in a mood to blog right now...freaking tired...kept zoning in class...*sighs*

<3 Lang

Listening To: Blue Star - Vidoll

Last ride on; 3:41 PM

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Ryosuke of Lolita23q <3

Xiwen and Steph came over to work on our Geo documentary...Steph and I were fangirling nearly half the time...We didn't get too much accomplished in three and a half hours. >___< At first, we were using finger puppets...when those failed epicly we tried to film ourselves. XDDD It was like...day one, what not to do: Steph brushes teeth while leaving the water running, Steph leaves fridge open, Steph wastes paper, Steph watches TV, goes on the internet, listens to her Ipod, and talks on the phone all at the same time. Then day two was basically me doing the exact opposite. Serious lameness...not to mention we were laughing too much. XD Muting/editing and then uploading it onto Youtube later...will post the link...

Then I went to watch Coraline with Gin. Loads of fun <333 We got to the theatre an hour early cause her mom was really paranoid we were gonna be late...Me and Gin walked around Loblaws to see if the sushi was on sale, which it wasn't...then we went to the arcade and played DDR...Someone paid for the Initial D game, but didn't play so we did. ^^ Then we blew $50 on food, yes food...fatties. 8D Thank you Gin for buying the food...Me owes you. *glomps*

Anyways, the movie was really interesting...it was 3D. Yeah, my face feels funny cause I had to wear 3D glasses over my regular glasses....But anyways, I really enjoyed it...The "other" parents had button eyes which I thought were cute...

Ughhh stupid migrane...why did I eat so much sugar?? >___<

<3 Lang

Listening To: Chameleon - Dolly

Last ride on; 6:30 PM

Saturday, February 7, 2009

OMFG Gaze ad for the new single <3 It's fucking beautiful...just like the Gaze boys. 8D

Random camwhoring cause I'm cool like that~

Ughhh my fringe is horrid...I had to cut it...

My parents say I look like a cat in this picture...O.o Oookay~ Meow~

Yeah ignore the bad quality...I used a phone camera...

I've been so lazy lately...did absolutely nothing today besides a geo project that my mom says a five year old could've done a better job at...I don't disagree with her actually, it really is terrible. I wonder what Steph and Xiwen will say when they come over to work on it tomorrow...*get shot* Anyways, my mom also caught sight of my Ipod, but she didn't say anything...only asked "Do you need money to pay your friend back??" Phew~~~ I seriously suck at hiding stuff from my parents...I'm really lucky this time...Still, I wonder how she found out in the first place. Oh and I got speakers too. ^o^

I can't believe I'm the first person to upload a normal version of Representa onto Youtube. *runs around* Do people not realize how epic that song is??

Happy birthday to Yuina of Dolly!! <3 Happy belated birthday to Yunnie of DBSK and Nao!! <3 Yay Lang for finally trying Daizystripper and Kra!! <3

You can shoot me in the heart a million times, but I'll only die once.

<3 Lang

Listening To: Ano toki no you ni - The Piass

Last ride on; 6:38 PM

Thursday, February 5, 2009

My baby is back!! <333333333

Yep, I got a new Ipod. \(*o*)/ 30 GB of pure love...I spent all night trying to reorganize my Itunes. Though I'm not sure what my parents' reaction would be to this...I bought it without their permission, though I did use my own money...I'll try to hide it from them for now. >___< Meeeef~

<3 Lang

Listening To: Because of a Man - Joo

Last ride on; 5:19 PM

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Sou x Ryosuke?? ^^ They look so cute in blonde. *squeal* <333

Thank you Peter for lending me so much money!! <33333 I don't even know how to pay you back...But I will, no worries...Though I'm warning you it might take a while. >___< *headdesk*

First things first, I need a new ipod because at the moment my nano is lying in a heap at the bottom of my garbage can...Yes it broke and so did my heart...I MISS YOU BABY~~~~~ *cries* LOL what the heck...anyways, now I can afford one with the money I've saved + the money Peter lent me...who knew he was so nice?? X3

~~Oh geez, I guess that means I won't be getting the DVD anytime soon~~...=___=

I found a store downtown that sells J-Rock stuff that are not bootlegs. Their selection is rather crappy, but as long as they have Gaze and Arisu CDs, that's fine with me...They even have Vandalize!! 8D Though that was from their online site which includes stores in the US as well as Canada...I'll be damned if the store in Toronto doesn't have it. D= Chinatown also has a huge selection of J-Rock CDs but they're all bootlegs, and PMall has a store that sells non-bootlegs, but PMall is a bit far from where I live...But the one downtown is near the subway which means I can get there fairly easily. Whoooo!! \(*o*)/ Lang must go on a shopping spree this weekend. Anyone wanna tag along? 8D

I'm effing tired...fell asleep three times throughout the day...

<3 Lang

Listening To: The Fray - You Found Me

Last ride on; 4:07 PM

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Happy birthday to Aki-sama of SID!! Who is looking uberly smexy while playing the piano <33333

And happy belated birthday to Alyia! <3

I think I'm supposed to be doing something other than flipping through pictures of Aki...>___> The more I look at him the more he reminds me of Hiroto...as if one bishie wasn't enough to drool over...

Lang has officially gone insane from looking at too many Aki pics. *dies* XDDD

*revives* Fuck, I just remembered I have French orals tomorrow...>___< Better go mug now...bye~

Already you are in a faraway place.
A place where, no matter how much you run, you can't run to.

<3 Lang

Listening To: Puzzle Ring - Vidoll

Afterthought: The virus problem has been cleared...turns out the girl added me through a forum...and someone did hack her account. =___=

Last ride on; 3:58 PM

Monday, February 2, 2009

Can you guess who? ^^ Spoiler: Takuya of An Cafe

*edit* Nao says: SEXYBACK!! 8D Christine says: Sleeping beauty

How to break a heart
It is not difficult
Anyone can do it
So could you, if you tried
Just find a light
And switch it off
As easy as blinking

<3 Lang

Listening To: Fuck it, I have Dirty Dancing stuck in my head and it's annoying as hell.

Last ride on; 6:47 PM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Bwahahaha these are the cutest cupcakes I have ever seen. LOL yes, I'm still in a birthday mood. ^^

Second post of the day...just came home from the movies...went to watch Bride Wars with Gin. It was an okay movie...not as funny as I thought it would be, but still, it was really fun hanging out with Gin...I realized how much I missed her. <333 Gin bought so much food...We nearly died from eating too much popcorn and malteasers before the movie was halfway over. Way to gain another pound in one sitting. T___T

Anyways, some mom in New Brunswick strangled her 12 year old daughter to death cause her boyfriend told her to choose between him or her daughter. O___O How could people be so heartless...or do they even have a heart in the first place?? If this is society, then I'd rather not be a part of it...

New An Cafe PV tomorrow!! Get excited cause it's gonna be epic!! LOL~

Oh and I just realized, happy 100th post to me!!!~~~~~ \(*o*)/

<3 Lang

Listening To: Moumoku - Lupo Label

Last ride on; 6:32 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...

...the beautiful, smexy, talented, ~~short~~ vocalist of the GazettE, Ruki!!! <333 Your smile/chicken dance/neck stripes/screams are epic!!! <33333 And...

The adorably dorky bassist of Ayabie, Intetsu!!! Mr. Bug-eyed bassgod!! 8D

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear Rukittytetsu
Happy birthday to you

Me hearts both of you tons!!!! <33333333333333333333333

Why is everyone getting so old? ;___;

I tried doing neck stripes for Ruki's birthday but failed...Gah I'm pathetic...my mom thought I burned my neck or something. XDDD Oh and aren't those GIFs the smex?? *dies*

I want to hear, even a sigh
The rhythm of a heartbeat
Of untouched prayers delivered...

<3 Lang

Listening To: Taion - the GazettE

Last ride on; 6:30 AM